Who am I Moriyah

I was born Inga Prokopov on 02.11.1995 at 18 PM, 9th of Cheshvan 5756 in the city of Minsk, the same capital of Belarus (Belarus), in Eretz Israel the time is: 16:00, I am in Scorpio, my Chinese horoscope is : pig year. I was born with devilish hair and blue eyes that changed their color to green. In addition I have a really flexible tongue. I was born with devilish hair and blue gourds that changed their color to green. In addition I have a really flexible tongue. And my 4 year old mother divorced. I immigrated to Israel. Israel Family 4.7, with mother. Family 5 changed my name to Inga Kroz, and also found my hearing impairment, due to ear infections from the age of 2, I started wearing a hearing aid in my left ear. It makes me have headaches, therefore, I only use my left ear).

In the right ear the situation is worse (the sounds are not absorbed into the brain, only in the peach are absorbed, and it makes me have headaches, and therefore, I use only the left ear). In addition I had a stomach problem and had a plastic surgery on my navel to remove excess skin. The muscles in the abdomen and arms have always been weak. In my baseline I learned in the "Yeheim" school, which became "Yehelim Ofarim". In class I was an outstanding classroom in the lame. In high school, I learned the Kohl in Be'er Sheva. In classrooms:

I have a full matriculation certificate. The profession I am the man was art. I made maturity in art.

I am a year and 11 months in the army: in the Home Front Command. At the time of the army I did psychometric and got 425.

I played two years on organic and then 10 consecutive years on violin + another year in organic school "Yehelim Ofarim".

At the age of 5, I danced 3 months of classic ballet, after this dancing dancing and modern dance, then I danced abdominal dancing, in 2013 I danced about the month of Brecdans and finally danced more than two years and half hip-hop.

I servers in the home choir (baseline) and in the Conservatory Channel (School of Music) in Arad. In 2011, I played the violin in "Talent Show" in. Arad "

In 2014, on Purim, I danced in the competition of talents with choreographers I found for myself and kept and reached the third and dignified place. On 30.06.2016, at the age of 20, I raised my old instagram and Facebook a whole dance I found, I worked for two months. I had difficulties in hearing, in addition to this I had some attention and concentration. I'm not perfect, I'm just a man. At the same time, I volunteered to Israel protection - gave me exempt due to hearing problem and chose volunteer. I was a year and 11 months an engineer and archive clerk.

Since then, periods of many changes, jobs I resigned and fired me (food rooms and warehouses of factories), study institutions I did not finish learning them. . All 25+ years when I live, I encounter obstacles, problems that need to pass and / or solve. Many times I ask myself why I never came to? In what purpose? The fact that my life is not arranged.

In 2015 I tried to be accepted to Ben Gurion's ship in Be'er Sheva, but I was not accepted by a low grade in English in psychometric and in 20020 I was accepted to Ben-Gurion University. And media. At the same time I took scholarships and even worked a week and a half in a super.

How was the blog born?

I really wanted to write a book about myself, for my life. In the meantime I remembered that once I wanted to open a blog. In recent times I really chase dreams and aspirations. The closure of the first wave in April gave me a time to make Restart alive, changing track and re-search. In addition, I'm in a long process of rehabilitation from the past and completion with the past. This blog is the summary and transition from the dark period for my bright period. I'm really proud of myself. I changed a lot. And there are so many people who helped me in every stage of my life. I once dreamed of being a writer, blogger, singer, dancer, actress, charming, famous and many more dreams .. Today I've raised all the dreams from the past . This is the closure of my third circle in life and a very significant turning point. - Inga Moriyah Kroz.

In high school

When I was offered to study at Bar-Sheva, I was happy, because I was still afraid of those who harassed me. When I got to seventh grade, to high school and in 2008, I was the same girl who was lonely and complaining. Because of my fundamentally dismal social situation; I was distant .. and also because I came to high school; To another city where I know no one and no one. It took me a while to connect .. I had a dilemma whether to change or stay who I am? I decided to stay who I was because at the time, I only had myself. To change is considered in my eyes as a betrayal of myself.

One day, after about half a month in seventh grade, there was a group assignment in one of the classes and I befriended some girls in the group I was in. In addition, I had hearing-impaired friends from an audio complex (classes where only the deaf learn). Slowly I removed the "armor" I was wearing and the wall I had built and started connecting with the kids in my class.

In eighth grade, a lot of kids from my class started to get to know me better; After attending the "Week of Silence" show. "Silence Week" - This is a week to increase awareness about hearing impairments, as well as information about hearing impairments. During the week, students with hearing impairments put on a show in which they explain the impairments and show that they can dance, play and sing (in sign language). In sign language you can both sing and dance. In the last show that was in 2014, there was a scene from my personal life. (The part where I get annoyed by the kids' looks and questions about the hearing aid.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iIEmZ_q85dc Week of Silence 2012

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLpA4WKWxns Silent Week 2013

Silence Week 2014 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Myx8QHQ1kjI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mW5iYsB1KPQ This is how it is to love yourself a sign language song

In high school I learned a lot about myself. At first it was hard and then the difficulty softened. Slowly I gained confidence. I began to accept myself and love myself.

Everyone has impaired senses, no one is perfect and no one is perfect. Each and every one must accept themselves. It's important to accept myself as I am, and to love myself as I am !.

So, I thought I was not guilty of anything. On the day, after thinking things through in depth, I actually realized that I started with all this when I said things out of place and spoke impudently. But I was in fourth grade then (I was 10). Today I am 20. Ten years have passed since the social boycott, and I still remember most of the events (some in their entirety and some in part).

It was only when I was 15 that I slowly began to accept myself, realizing that I was just a human being and that my sons and daughters were making mistakes and sometimes making wrong decisions.

But, unfortunately, I have become accustomed to loneliness, and many times I am the one who isolates myself from society; Perhaps out of habit; Or, maybe it's out of fear that everything that happened to me in fourth grade (social boycott, bullying and loneliness) will repeat itself.

The lesson is: do not get stuck in the past! What happened, was and is over. What was will not be more! Plus, you can always change, it's possible!

In high school there were children who would harass me - these are the kind of kids who would harass everyone, over time I learned to ignore and restrain myself. There were also some who harassed me on the school bus. And once I got into a fight with a girl on a shuttle.

Audio Club - In high school I met through friends a guy who was ten years older than me, I who was innocent and really wanted a friend at that time I became his girlfriend. We only meet at the club. After a year I met another guy on the school bus and we became friends we tried to be together but couldn't. From then until the twelfth grade I did not have a boyfriend.

Connected - In high school I was in the Connected group for 3 years, which is a group for people with social difficulties. There are meetings and activities and learn how to live in society.

Hearing impairment

When I was born, my mother got a little too much amniotic fluid, which created a situation where I did not get enough oxygen to my brain. In addition, I suffered from severe ear, throat and nose infections. Apparently it affected my hearing. No one knows how much it affected and when exactly it started.

Suddenly one day, when I was 3, the teacher told my mother that I do not respond when called from behind or from the side and that I tend to daydream.

I was tested and found nothing. A year later I immigrated to Eretz Israel with my mother. In Israel they did tests on me, found out I had a hearing impairment and said I needed to put on a hearing aid.

First they tried in my left ear, it was too loud and I did not understand anything, then they put a hearing aid in my right ear and it improved my hearing.

I felt strange, different. All the children did not produce to ask me questions like: "What do you have in your ear", "Is it contagious?". These questions only contributed to my insecurity and I felt hated, judged and ridiculed.

Over the years it has become clear that in the right ear the area of ​​the cochlea is wrong and the sounds that are absorbed into my brain are remnants of hearing.

There is a device called a "cochlear implant" which is like a hearing aid, only I need surgery for it and my mother was afraid I would; And to this day I am without an implant and manage excellently.

The connection to religion and strengthening

The real connection to religion was in the seventh grade when there was a war and there were no studies in the country. I did not want to go to high school in Arad because of what happened to me in fourth and fifth grades (bullying, social boycott, loneliness) so I studied at Arad's studio - my mother taught mathematics there. There I also learned to pray.

In the 11th grade, I approached religion following a friend who repented, (this is not the first time I tried to repent). I tried several times. The reason I did not succeed is because each time I had a different interest.

After a few years, due to lack of faith and evil instinct, I left religion and almost converted to Christianity ...

I eventually returned to Judaism and started looking for motivational phrases online (around 2016); Following a video I came across on YouTube: "A Whole Life of a Lie" by Rabbi Daniel Salomonia. I started listening to lectures by rabbis, I read books I learned to pray, I also listened to lectures by coaches. You sifted before me a new world.

Over the years I have deleted all my immodest photos and videos. I started working on myself and my problems. I had great difficulties like working in a hotel on Saturdays and even when I was fired for the first time I lost faith ... in the end I realized that without blemishes and without faith I will not get anywhere !. And really thanks to faith I was not broken when I was fired from the hotel and the warehouse. And I said, "All is well."

There was a time when I was an atheist, I lost faith in the Creator but it did not last long because I was unable to live without faith. There was a time when I looked for myself and fell for the Messianic minister; That it is from Christian missionaries whose purpose is to convert Jews; They are a sophisticated sect.

Over the years I developed I heard lectures and Torah lessons from rabbis and rabbinates. I learned to pray. I read books, I studied everywhere - YouTube, Channel 2000 radio, Hidbraut channel, Facebook, Instagram, YouTube, books and more .. Everywhere you can learn a Torah lesson.

Army - IDF

I was granted an exemption but, I chose to volunteer (I was a clerk and archivist at the HAGA PAKAR, an office of the Home Front Command engineer) I also had problems; the soldiers who served with me thought I was spoiled because I had an exemption from guarding, weapons and sleeping at the base. To deal with hearing impairments.Takes time to learn how to behave properly.- During the military period I did a psychometric.

My grandmother started to lose memory (around 2013) and slowly the situation got worse and to this day it is like this. In 2015 a blood clot exploded inside my grandfather's head and his condition worsened, before that he had migraines but, he refused to go to the doctor. Half a year after he passed away, he is the first relative buried in the country. At that time in the military I almost ruined my life for myself in an extreme reaction to a mistake. (I accidentally deleted an entire file from the computer and it is not a quantity of cotton that can be returned it is a long quantity). Following the mistake I went into stress and anxiety and said something along the lines of "I want to die". Immediately I was invited to the commanding officer and after that the commander made a home visit. for two years.

Year 2 of Army, Relationships and the Period After

My ex-girlfriend from high school was released from me, on the day of a serious breakup I was locked up at home and my dad did not know what happened but when I why I do not do the chores at home (usually I do), I lost my mind I took numbers and tried to cut myself. My dad found out and wanted the moment to send me to a closed institution. My mother said I should not increase that it is enough to just talk to me. My mother knew well that I was insecure (she knew from my teacher about the boycott they had on me in fourth grade). Luckily no one saw the signs, and luckily the scissors were not sharp. Like when Zeb happened when you were in a storm of emotions.